Bittersweet time.  But Tai is home with you where she belongs.   

We know this is such a heartbreaking time for you.  You don't  need to write anything right now, just continue  to move through your grief.  I am glad you came here today though.  You are with your tripawd family who understand the silent void  and emptiness in your home and your heart.

There is no way to "rush" through grief.  It has to be felt.  As the saying goes, "When you love hard, you grieve hard."  

And don't  put any "timeframe" on when you should  move this or that.  There are so many of us here who will tell you about things that we NEVER put away or threw away.  I still have  the carton of left over ice cream in the freezer I gave Happy Hannah......five years later!    

I've  added some of my dog's ashes   to the soil and then planted a shrub or flower.  I do that as   a beautiful  way to remind myself that in Nature nothing ever "dies", it just changes form.  And we are all part of Nature.  And I've  always saved some of the ashes  to keep here with me until mine join theirs. 

Be open to Tai connecting with you.  She will.  Promise .  When you can, we would love to know how she has decided  to make her presence  known.  You had thousands  of happy memories  during all those years together.   Again, when you can, we would ,love to hear about some of those special times.

Please know we are here for you and with you.  We got to witness firsthand the unbreakable bond you and Tai share.  We are so privileged  to be on this journey  with that special  cutie pie doggy.

With love

Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too 

For whatever it's  worth, those "guilt feelings" are something we all deal with.  They tend to show up during those first several weeks of our hard, relentless grieving. So you are not alone in that category.  I think the human side of us always thinks we have some sort of super power whereby we can "cause" things or "prevent" things.  And we can also tell you the better times, ,the reality  of the great life you gave Tai,  will eventually  overshadow those "feelings".   They truly  have nothing  to do with the reality that Tai experienced. And all that matters is Tai's perspective  and Tai was thrilled to have more bonus time with you!

On this journey, the reality is this piece of crap disease  "causes" us to make decisions  we certainly  wouldn't  ordinarily  consider!    But what we do have "control" over is to try and give our dogs and cats the best chance for more quality for spoiling and loving. 

Additionally,  the aging process and the "rhythm  of life" are not anything we "cause" and certainly not anything we can prevent.

And goodness knows, you gave Tai that chance and she absolutely loooooved all the spoiling  she finagled out of you!  She still got to go for lots of carrides in her special cushy seat (love that photo)!   And she got to go to work with you more than ever before!  You gave Tai the chance to live out her life as a senior  that not everyone on this journey gets to experience.  You gave Tai the chance to experience  the "golden" part of her golden years by loving her so exquisitely every moment of every day.  We can all absolutely  guarantee you that Tai was so thrilled to have this extended quality  time with you just as much as you were with her. 

These pictures are so adorable and I'm so glad you shared them with us.  She is such a cutie pie!!!  Had to chuckle a bit that, after the amp, she wasn't  too keen on going out in bad weather.  She traded that instead for staying inside all warm and snuggly with you!  Smart doggy!!

You can be certain that, the first thing Tai did when she got to the Bridge, was tear into the wheelbarrow full of toys set aside for her arrival and RIP them to shreds!!   The dogs and cats are offered their fourth leg back when the get to the Bridge.  Tai declined the offer and went straight ahead to her bundle of toys to shred!!   Last I heard, the Angel's do, indeed, give her carrides everyday  going from cloud to cloud while eating cookies and ice cream.

We're  send you our love.  Stay close.  Were still here for you, okay?  And share photos ANYTIME!  Tai continues to steal our heart with every photo.💖

Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry and Frankie too!

The holidays...the firsts....they really hit hard.  Eventually,  the many happy holidays you shared will bring you more light to help push the darkness away.

For whatever it's  worth, your feelings of "guilt" are something  we all feel in some form or another.   Yes, regardless of all the "rational  self talks" you give yourself, you do feel this and that's  okay, for awhile anyway.  You don't want those feelings to deny the connection between you and Tia. Or to interfere with the thousands of happy memories  you two shared!      We can only tell you that time is the only thing that helps you move further away from the "guilt", the second  guessing, the what-ifs, etc.  It's  just part of grief.   But focusing  on the good memories  is what Tia wants you to do, because that's  all that matters to her ❤

I'm  glad you posted today.  You and Tia are family.   Always will be.   We're  still right here by your side, just like we were from day one. 

And you had me grinning ear to ear when you told us about our little family member stealing toys!!!  OMD!!!  I can just imagine  that cutie pie prancing  around so proud with her booty.....knowing  you were her "get out of jail" card!

Please share more of her little...er......quirks when you can😊

Lots and lots of love

Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!