We put Titan down to rest tonight. He started having trouble breathing a little last night. I noticed his gums were very pale so I knew it wasn't good. He was very stressed out. I talked to the oncologist today and he agreed with me a 100% that it was time for Titan. We brought him to the emergency clinic instead of the jerk vet. They were so nice. Just the 20 min ride from our house to the vet Titan got about 100% worse. He had peed on the comforters we laid in the back of the car for him. A nice man coming out of the clinic helped my husband carry Titan in. They put us in a quiet room with calming music and a gas fireplace. As soon as my husband put Titan down on the floor he starting pooping so I knew he had lost control of his bowels. He was gasping for air. I couldn't believe the change in 20 mins. They rushed in to help him. I also had noticed the pads of his feet were very cold today. They said the pale gums and pads of his feet were due to low blood pressure so they had a hard time finding a vein. He fought until the end but I know we did the right thing. We came home and it is hard not hearing the thumping of his big tail on the couch. I am heartbroken, raw and sad all at the same time. I can't believe this all happened in 24 hours.

Sad mommy

Heidi

P.S. Jerry Dawg take good care of my lil man!

Heidi,

Heidi,

I'm sorry you're hurting. It's never easy letting go, but trust that you made the right decision.

(((HUG)))

Bev & Tigger

  Oh Heidi, I am in tears right now after reading about Titan's passing.  I am soooooo very sorry that you and your husband had to say goodbye (for now) to your sweet boy.  He will always be our big gentle hero and an inspiration to us all!  You have been amazing pawrents and your tremendous love that you have for Titan will always live in your heart.  It is so hard to find the words to comfort you at a time like this but just know that you are both in our thoughts and prayers right now.  Titan is in a beautiful and safe place with Jerry and all of our incredible tripawd friends who have crossed over the Bridge.  We are sending lots of warm and furry hugs your way Heidi…   

Heidi,

I am very sorry to hear about your loss.  I can just imagine how heart broken you must be….

Lots of love and hugs,

Ansunette & Dee xxx

I am so sorry for your loss. He is at peace – remember that- and one day you will be reunited- he'll be waiting on the bridge.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Much love,

Seanne and Wrigley

Weds morning after saying good bye to Titan the night before this song came on my xm radio. I had never heard it before. I hope it was a sign from Titan. I wanted to share the lyrics with you

I'll Be There – Escape Club

Over mountains, over trees
Over oceans, over seas
Across the deserts
I'll be there

In a whisper on the wind
On the smile of a new friend
Just think of me
And I'll be there

Don't be afraid, oh my love
I'll be watching you from above
And I'd give all the world tonight to be with you
'Cause I'm on your side, and I still care
I may have died, but I've gone nowhere Just think of me, and I'll be there

On the edge of a waking dream
Over rivers, over streams
Through wind and rain
I'll be there

Across the wide and open sky
Thousands of miles I'd fly
To be with you
I'll be there

Don't be afraid, oh my love
I'll be watching you from above
And I'd give all the world tonight to be with you
'Cause I'm on your side, and I still care
I may have died, but I've gone nowhere Just think of me, and I'll be there

In the breath of a wind that sighs
Oh, there's no need to cry
Just think of me,
And I'll be there

This is so hard I feel cheated. Even though he's out of pain I want my big boy here to hug, cuddle and kiss. Today was a snowy day in NH. Him and I would have hung out the whole day being couch potatoes together.

Heidi