Hello Community,

I am the lucky mom to a precious little 14 year old Chihuahua mix named Ruby. My dogs are my children. I know people say that, but they really are. I never want either of them to feel an ounce of pain, sadness or unhappiness. I've had Ruby since a friend found her on the side of the road 13 years ago. I brought her home for a trial night and never let her leave. She is easily the sweetest, most caring and loving dog ever created. Not one person who has met her doesn't instantly fall in love with her. 

I took Ruby in for her 6 month check-up on 7/24. That's when this nightmare began. They found a mass on her ankle that had sprung up out of nowhere. Because of the feel of it, the doctor recommended a biopsy to see if we should be concerned. Two days later, we found out that it was Mast Cell Cancer. Since 7/24, Ruby has undergone countless visits to the doctor, oncologist and surgeon. Biopsies, bloodwork, ultrasounds and x-rays have all confirmed that the tumor is aggressive and the only way to save her is to amputate her leg. We have surgery scheduled for 8/21. In less than one month, my healthy and happy little girl's life has changed. 

The closer we get to her surgery date, the more guilt I have begun to feel. I feel guilty that I am making a decision to take her leg from her. I feel guilty that she is going to endure terrible pain and confusion. I feel guilty that she isn't going to understand what is happening to her. 

Is this normal?