I was so excited! Little did I know that by the next week at that time he would be gone. I was totally unprepared for the onslaught of tears and emotion that has come barreling back. Tears at the drop of a hat, just plain old sadness. I want to make a slideshow. I don't know how, I am sorry my boy that you got such a computer illiterate for a Mom. I got on and picked out a song. For those of you who were born in my decade, you probably remember John Gross's song from 1970, Shannon is Gone. That is what I will use if I get it figured out. Can't ask the kids, they make fun of me now, cannot imagine if I asked them to help. Warning!! do not look this song up without tissues. Like the end of the song, I hope Ty knows how much we really miss him. Last night, we held bible Study at our house. I looked at the pile of shoes, there were 10 of us, and thought of my precious boy, how much fun he would have had. I really think he sat back and giggled while we would go searching for the missing one. I think the one year thing has elevated the fear of losing Chandler. He is old and I do not like it. My Aussie mix lived to be 14 and I don't think I ever thought about her dying. I was devastated when she did, but did not worry so much. Of course, she was still chasing her ball at 14. Poor Chan is chunky and a bit lazy.I feel so badly that Ty was in so much pain for so long and I did not know it. No one mentioned bone cancer. I did not even realize it was a problem dogs faced. He limped intermittently for a year. Even the vet thought it was just that stupid hardware in there. My baby was hurting so badly and I did not know it. That is tough to live with. Now, I worry that Chan is in more pain from his arthritis than he is letting on. I am scared to death to use the Rimadyl and that was only for 2 weeks anyway. Just keep thinking of Ty's experience with the Deramax. Sorry for the long post, just needed to remember my boy here today. Just was not expecting this wave of sadness. Lori, Ty and the gang