Hi everyone - I just wanted to thank you all so very much for your words of support.  I haven't been able to bring myself back here and I should have been here sooner to thank everyone!

It's just been a little over a month now and I keep waiting for a sign from him to let me know he's ok somehow.  I just keep hoping and praying that somehow, someway, I'll get a sign to know he's ok.  One of my coworkers had shared a story with me that after she had lost her first dog, a couple of months after losing her, she had dreamt of her dog Sam running through this lush field and just having the time of her life.  And then she knew Sam was happy and ok having moved on.  I haven't dreamt of Smokey once since I lost him and I really wish I would.  I think I keep hanging onto this hope too much that I'll get that sign, especially given how incredibly close I was to him, or at least felt like I was.

Thank you again - your words have really helped and I very much appreciate them!  I hope everyone had a good holiday and please give all your pups a treat from me :).

Oh no!  I'm so very sorry to hear about Kona!  Those last couple of hours I just kept whispering to Smokey as I was trying to be strong for him, that he was going to have so much fun playing with his friends who have sinced passed on before him that he grew up with.  I'm trying my hardest to imagine that's exactly what he's doing right now. 

I'm so, so very sorry for your loss - I will keep you in my thoughts and hope that you also get that sign that she's ok.  I wish there was a way that I could make it happen to where we never have to lose our amazing pups - especially when they mean so much to us