Today I went for a walk, just where Charlie and I would always go, and I found a nice paw print in the mud.  I know it was his as I remember thinking what a nice imprint it was when he made it.  That was his last walk.  Nice and deep.  I had some sculptamold left from a school project of my sons years ago so I hastily made a cast of it.  Its decent but a little rough.  I would like to use it to do the reverse imprint, so it looks like it did in the dirt.  Does anyone have a suggestion as to how to do it?  I do have an imprint that the vet had done but its not the same.  I don't want to ruin what I have.  I'm thinking of using saran wrap around it and pressing it into plaster.  Any thoughts?

I'm having a real issue with putting his things away.  Every day something else goes.  His backup canned food treats shampoo and stuff, went to my older son, suppliments and meds to the vet to give to someone who could use those things.  Frozen raw food to a good friend.  Washed his blanket.  Returned an unused bottle of fish oil to the Vet Supply.  His  harness, leash and my headlamp for night walks still hang on the wall.  His food and water bowls still in the kitchen.  Am I being to weird?  Of course everytime I see his stuff I get depressed, but every time something goes it feels like a little more of him goes also. I know there is no answer here, its just something I have to work out.  Just needed to get it out.  

Well, I'll try to keep this short but it may get long.  I'm 65 yrs old, just got a smart phone several years ago because my employers, I'm a carpenter, wanted me to send pics of problems to them so they could be resolved promptly.  I had a flip phone b4 then.  Anyway I liked the pic aspect so when Charlie got sick I started taking lots of pics of him as well as others.  I loaded them all on my laptop so I could print them out.  Anyway the other day I was trying to load one of his pics as a desktop on my computer but could not seem to figure that out so I selected screensaver and selected 1 pic and closed the computer.  So today, just a short time ago,  I was looking on the web for some ideas for a stone garden memorial, thinking I could use the  casting of his paw print I mentioned earlier to imprint some cement and trying to get some ideas as to how I could etch concrete with some memorial.  I got sidetracked with a phone call, set the computer down and when I came back there was a pic of Charlie, not the one I tried to load.  It seems that all the pics I had loaded on my computer are now screensavers, including all of Charlie's.  I watched all those beautiful pics scroll by, some with him and the grandkids, my son Carl's graduation ceremony from boot camp, him with Charlie, after surgery pics and his recovery.   It was wonderful.  Charlie's work? 

I did not intend to post here again but this is the place for the way I feel today.  It's my birthday and everyone is calling/texting me "happy birthday".  It will be 3 weeks tomorrow since I lost Charlie.  I'm losing it today, had to leave work early.  The only thing I want for my birthday I can't have.  Just needed to vent a little.