Hi and welcome to you and Cooper! I know you're in a worrisome situation right now, and I promise you are not the only one who has had these emotions when going though treatments. It's so hard to make these decisions for our dog. We feel guilty when things don't turn out as well as we had hoped because we can't explain to them why they feel so bad at the time. I guess the best way to handle these worries is to stay in touch with your vet team so that they will know what is going on with Cooper. Jot down his symptoms, let them know so they can address your concerns, and then fine tune the chemo for next time. Have you talked to them about his reaction this time around?

Also, since you mentioned the fall, I'll throw this out there that it is probably not related to chemo but to general weakness from the amputation. Has Cooper seen a rehab therapist? Did you know that Tripawds Foundation can pay for your first rehab visit ? We find that it is sooooo helpful for a dog to get evaluated by a therapist. That way they can pinpoint any weaknesses and show you ways to build up his strength.

How old is cooper? You didn't mention that but if he's older, that is something to keep in mind too. Older dogs take longer to bounce back from surgery. Throw in chemo and it's going to take even longer. Not that you made a bad decision by doing it, but just allow him more time to get his mojo back.

You already know that your worrying isn't helpful to you or to Cooper. Going into panic mode solves nothing. So work with your emotions when you feel like you're about to go down that road. Have you tried meditation to keep you more present and calm when things start spiraling? That is what I find really helpful, an app like Calm has tons of free meditations that can help you ground yourself and better cope with this level of worry, which as I said, tends to go along when you're in a situation like this.

We totally get what you are going through, you are not alone. Keep us posted OK?