Sadie has a Serratia bacterial infection. Raging. Going into surgery today at 230. Noone knows what they will find underneath it all. I suspect, (fear) infection is progressing to her bloodstream, and organs. I fear NF (flesh eating bacteria). Her demeanor is that of a scolded child. Droopy head and tail constantly between her legs. It is so painful. Physically for her....and me!! If this surgery can get rid of the infection (antibiotics have not been very effective, if at all) and she can recover..then I can dig deep and find strength to get through another set of "hell weeks". Time frame for recovery is uncertain. If damage is too extensive or infection is overtaking her, vet will tell us today after surgery. I feel like I am balancing on a highwire without a net...don't fall or else!! I am actually surprised at myself as to how this experience has affected me. I am physically hurting, wake up during night crying and short of breath. Can't eat, can't sleep for long, the anticipation of today has been hanging over us since the infection was noticed 7 days ago. My Sadie is not herself. Meds contribute, and that is fine with me as long as her pain is  controlled. I already miss my friend and we don't even know anything yet; not really. I have lived on google. Lots of info, lots of could be's, but no real answers. I have experienced human loss in my life... and worked through it, but with this, the not knowing and the waiting is brutal. I also know that even if she tolerates the surgery and comes home with ongoing wound care, she is not out of the woods. Now it is truly a matter of "time will tell". I never thought I would be a dog person, much less be feeling a physical tearing of my heart. My chest actually hurts. So this is what love feels like.. and compassion, hope, anxiety,...mercy. I am so appreciative of Tripawds. The silver lining of a dark cloud. I am pulling for Sadie today..give it all you got, girl! Take that spunk and spirit and fight this thing. I am waiting...

Wonderful news! Surgeon said he did not think Sadie needed the surgery anymore! He said the incision is 90% healed except for the "L" area which has shrunk from size of clementine to a quarter! He said our vet really came through with the daily visits and aggressive infection care. She is responding to the antibiotics. He said if we should need to do this surgery later, then so be it, but he was very optomistic about the improvement. We are still going to go every day for wound care and to keep on top of this terrible infection. And Sadie still has a road ahead of recovery and discovering new adventures as a tripawd. I am thankful for skilled vets, etc. but I am also thankful to God for these answered prayers....and to all of you for your ongoing support and prayers. I cannot express my relief, my apprehension, my gratitude. You guys are awesome. Providing input and support while struggling yourselves, I'm sure. I know we may not be all clear from this complication, but I will enjoy this high tonight.