Hi everybody.

Teresa here.

Thank you so much for your kind words and for thinking of me and my girl.

Sorry I wasn't able to update you sooner but I needed some time.

As you all know in your hearts, Eurydice is gone.

I gave her her shock doses of cortisone and diuretics at 11h but she was not well at all.

She breathed with difficulty and hopping was a real effort and by early afternoon her tongue was not greyish blue, it was blue.

I had to call Edouard (Scott the Great Dane's father) to come and help us get her in the car, this was the only time she couldn't really do it, even with the incentive of auntie Evelyne's yummy dried duck.

Edouard and Sandrine came with me to the hospital and, in my head, I was still hoping they could give her a "special injection" which would perk her up until auntie Joulia was here and maybe even do an ultrasound to check whether the tumours were pressing onto some internal organ and, armed with that information, something could be done.

Caroline, her private angel wasn't there (she had worked a 12h shift the previous night) but she called me and said based on the photos I sent her before leaving to the hospital she thought time had come for her to leave us.

She very very kindly offered to come to our home at any time and help Eurydice leave ...

The vet who saw my girl at hospital is also an angel and knew Eurydice.

Her opinion when she saw her was that there was nothing we could do, her blue tongue confirmed she hadn't enough oxygen circulating in her body.

She told me she would depart during the night in enormous sufferance.

We'd run out of weapons to fight cancer.

We won battle upon battle for 13 months and one week and she lived with lung mets for 6 1/2 months. 

But cancer did not have the upper hand, oh no !!!!

She departed in mine, Sandrine's and Edouard's arms and went to sleep a really happy girl.

She lied in the car where she had gone with me on our travels through Europe, the best place for her to go on her solitary trip.

As the anaesthesia was starting to work she smiled and did a really happy hmmmmmmmmm.

She always did that after each exciting, fun, loving day as she was going to dream about next day's adventures. 

Sadly, I could not prepare any special meal as I did not know this would be her last trip, all I had was a little bit of dried duck from auntie Evelyne which she devoured with gusto. 

We had to leave her body at the veterinary hospital during the evening and me and Sandrine collected her the next morning and took our baby girl to be cremated. 

I am so blessed I had a clean decision to make and she didn't really suffer.

I never had to question whether it was too soon (or too late) this was just the right moment.

She was very uncomfortable Sunday night, yes, but still managed to breath enough to sleep during little occasions.

When I was publishing my previous update she even got herself belly up, stretched her leg up in the air and did that happy hmmmmmmmmm of hers.

She just went to sleep, my lovely lovely lovely girl 

And how about Pitou ?

Well, this was Eurydice's final kind gesture.

She wanted to thank him for being here with her until the end so she worked her charm on the osteopath and got him to adopt him.

Only a few days ago we spoke and he said he was adopting Pitou.

He said in the last two sessions he had with Eurydice, Miss Cow had looked into his eyes and into his soul and he knew in his heart she was telling him to give him a happy home.

And he could not say no.

So, she departed doing an incredibly good action.

And what is amazing too is that him and his wife travel extensively through Europe and will take him everywhere, just like my baby and me did.

She knew how fun that was and wanted Pitou to live the same life.

The osteopath will pick him up on wednesday and he'll be in Ireland next Sunday for his first trip.

Caroline, Eurydice's private angel, sent me the sweetest message the day after she left.

It is now four days after her departure and I decided to see her X-ray from May 4th.

It was scary, and I mean SCARY ...

Cross my heart I cannot comprehend how she lived for 6 weeks ...

The X-ray showed her lungs were literally covered by thousands of tumours and there were many, many, many the size of tennis balls.

At the rate osteosacorma tumours develop it is a miracle she could function and on top of that be happy for so long. 

My guess is there would be virtually no space in her lungs free of tumours in the end. 

She now lives on in mine and all of her many many many many many many many friends hearts.

She will never be forgotten and hopefully she will continue helping others who will see themselves facing this piece of crap disease.

I hope she is happy and I am sure Kinky, my previous beloved Dane was there to welcome her.

They will be waiting for me, I know.

I wanted to ask you all a big favour.

I don't know how to copy youtube music links so please, for Eurydice, go to youtube and watch Coldplay's song, The Scientist. 

This song was part of a double album compilation I made for my Kinky and is now for my Eurydice.

Also can you please search for another song, Alice Martineau's Inside of You.

This is for my Eurydice and she and Alice Martineau were exactly the same whilst they lived.

Please check Alice Martineau's story, she was the ultimate human warrior and, faced with a deadly, horrible disease and a life expectancy at birth of merely ten years, she managed to live 30 happy years, always with a smile in her face and defying the odds.

Osteosarcoma is a monster, a filthy monster but Eurydice wasn't scared, not even for one second.

She did not allow her disease to break her and I am convinced this is why she managed to live that long.

That, and chemotherapy, I believe.

Me, as a loving Mom did everything in my power to make each day exciting and fun and by doing so did not allow cancer to break me either.

Ostaeosarcoma needs team work, never forget it.

To all of you who are still fighting the fight whenever you may feel sad or lost just think of Eurydice.

If you think of her with your heart, I am sure Miss Cow will fly to you and will surround you with her love and make you feel better and get back into track.

My only regret was that I could not compose myself for her and cried a lot at the hospital. 

She pretended not to see it.

A wonderful girl until the end. 

... I had a rough night but right now I'm just resting here and I feel ok ...

... Mom and auntie Sandrine look worried as apparently my tongue is turning blue ...

... whatever that means ...

Teresa here.

This is the message Caroline, the vet angel, sent me a few hours after Eurydice transitioned. 

I am sorry I cannot bring myself to translating it into English right now.

I will do it at some point, I promise.

Or, if any of the Canadian bilingual members of our family would like to do it for me, I would really appreciate it.

... Eurydice, Kinky and Punkie (my favourite cat) live by my bed in their wooden boxes ...