Michelle, I am sitting here in total disbelief and my eyes are filled with tears.  I am so sorry.  I know how you feel, we all do.  I cried my eyes out when we found out about the mets with Cadence. As we were driving home from the vets office, I was so upset and then I got so mad that I wanted to punch something.   When we got home, Cadence jumped out of the car,  went to the front lawn, and started rolling around.  Right there and then, I said to myself, if Cadence is not going to let this get her down, then neither am I.  Sassy does not know that the cancer is back.  She is going to go on with her business like usual. 

Our vet also offered us the Padilla.  I couldn't believe the cost of it.  For a dog Cadence's size(92 lbs) it was something like $1000-$1200 a month.  We just could not afford it.  If the vet could have given me a 100% guarantee that it would have worked, I would have robbed a bank, so I could have afforded it. (joke).  You have done everything you could for Sassy.  Do not beat yourself up if in the end, you cant afford the Padilla.  Sassy knows that you have done so much for her already.

Enjoy each and everyday with Sassy.  Give her lots of hugs and kisses.  Like Jerry said, don't let the cancer rob you of the time you have with Sassy.  I cherished every minute of everyday that we had Cadence.  Sassy knows how much she is loved and I know that she loves you just as much.

Just know that we are all here for you.  PM me if you need to talk.  Since we just went through all of this with Cadence, I may be able to answer any questions that you may have. 

You are in my thoughts and I'm sending both you and Sassy a big hug.

Michelle, I am so so sorry.  I know this is devastating news.  Spend as much time as you can with Sassy.  Enjoy each and every precious moment together.  As Jerry says, don't let cancer rob you of the time you have left together. 

Many many hugs

Karen and Spirit Magnum

Michelle, I feel awful about your news and had hoped this wasn't the outcome. As so many wise people on here have said, live the best life with Sassy, and continue to beat the odds. Time is so precious. You and Sassy are in my thoughts and prayers.

You know my feelings already, I've told you them all in the chat room .

I'm angry.  I'm pissed.  I'm sad.  I want to punch someone.

F U CANCER.  You prove the stats wrong sassy.  You are a winter warrior princess.  You are Jill's chemo buddy, Sassy girl.  You fight this thing.

That is all.

Love you Michelle, Love you Sassy.

There really isn't anything to say that hasn't been said. Like everyone else, I am angry and sad. Spending time with you in chat last night was good for all of us who were there. This kind of thing is too big to handle alone, so the more you have to help you the better. Try to remember that a prognosis is a guess from a person who feels expected to make one. The often give low-ball estimates because they don't want angry people coming back later. But the estimates or guesses don't matter.

Here is what matters: Every single one of us, regardless of how well our dogs and cats are doing, should try to end each day thinking "this was a pretty good day and if it's my last I'm happy." Even if the only thing that saved the day was 30 minutes eating ice cream with the dog or watching an old movie curled up with the cat. We should never take for granted what we have. 

Here are my rules:

*Take care of YOU.

*Do something fun each day.

*Let us help.

I'm glad to hear the morning is being kinder to you.  Those tears will strike you.  Sometimes when you least expect it.  Just keep fighting through it and enjoying the time you have day by day.  Even the days at the end are memory builders. In Trouble's last week, I would just take her out and sit on a blanket outside with her because she loved the sunshine.

Give Sassy a hug for me and maybe a special treat.