Hi Everyone,

 The last couple days have been harder than when I first wrote the post a week ago.  Breaking down more often in the car when she's not with me because I'm trying my darned best to stay pawsitive with her every moment.  It takes its toll. I keep reminding myself I can cry tomorrow. Just wait until tomorrow.

Even though I have no regrets about the decision, its the knowing. It's the knowing that my soulmate with whom I met and grew up with since I was 12, someone whom I've known and cared for more than half my life, must go.  I wish I could bottle her soul and transfer it into me because that's what she's only ever wanted. Just to be with me. And I with her.

Thank you for all your words of comfort, it's so wonderful to reread them whenever I need a boost.

Today we made ALOT of ceramic paws for her favorite people. Over the past 10 days we've gone to the park, driven around in the car, eaten IN-N-OUT for dinner, rummaged through the presents to eat the pumpkin bread through the plastic from my grandma...

I'll be sleeping on the twin trundle on the ground tonight and I'm sure I'll have someone take over half the small bed. But this time I don't mind.

Apologies if this posts twice, somehow I got logged out when trying to post...

I felt compelled to watch Eat, Pray, Love last night and it reminded me of my favorite excerpt from the book. Every word is so true:

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love