Sally,
I'm in tears after reading your post.  I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this.  This damn cancer.....

I wanted you to know how important your posts on Charley's blog have been to me...especially after Charley's OS came back under his amp site this past October.  They always made me smile and feel better! 

It's perfectly fine to cry, scream, yell, whatever you need to do....that's how we all process information and we need to be able to release these emotions even if that means we lock ourselves in the bathroom turn on the shower and scream! 

I was a crying emotional mess for a good 24 hours after finding out that Charley's cancer returned and then I got pissed!  I wasn't going to let cancer take away precious happy moments that I could be having with Charley....and just like Charley, Hannah doesn't know she's sick but only that her momma is sad.

There is nothing that you could have done differently and there is no way that you did not do enough for Hannah or love Hannah enough.  It is what it is.  It's not fair and it's not want we wanted, but none of us have a choice except that we have to Be More Dog and live in the moment.  I believe that our pups are here to teach us important lessons...we may not understand them now or even years down the road, but some day we will. 

I know there is nothing I can say that will make the situation better, but you and Hannah have been in my thoughts and prayers.  The entire Tripawd community is here for you.  We are your second family.  There is no way that I, or many others, could continue with our journey without the support, encouragement, prayers, shoulders to cry on, etc. that we provide to each other. That's what we are here for!

Has your oncologist mentioned Palladia?  Charley had his final chemo #6 today and I was asking our onco what chemos are left if his OS comes back again (he's already had carboplatin, doxorubicin and CCNU and they won't work again) and he mentioned Palladia.  There have been pups on Bone Cancer Dogs that used it and it has shrunk smaller lungs tumors. 

Is there only the single large met?  If it's in an operable location and there are no other mets, could they do a lobectomy?  There was a pup on Bone Cancer Dogs that had a lobectomy to remove the lung met and she lived another 4 years and passed from lymphoma.

Feel free to privately email me anytime...I sent you a shorter version of this in a pm.

I'm sending you and Happy Hannah lots of positive thoughts and prayers...as well as hugs from me and chocolate Labby kisses from Charley! 

Love,

Ellen