Thank you everyone for your condolences. Its been such a rough few days. Its a balance of crying uncontrollably and hugging things that still smell of her.... to reminiscing and laughing at all her silly antics and stories we have of her.

Its been great to be home and not working during this time. Going back on Monday is going to suck. But I'll just deal with that when the day comes.  We have ordered individual cremation for Kylie in a wooden latched box with her name carved on the top. I've ordered a necklace for myself and my Mom that will hold some of Kylie's ashes. She was such a special dog to so many people!  Everyone has been great. I've received gift baskets at my door with special things, including a pillow with one of the photos of the 3 of us from the photo shoot embedded on it. Its the most special thing I've seen! Also a display of artificial white roses which will be going on the mantle along with her.

I've only put away a few of her things like her dish and some toys that were laying around. But her bed still sits at the front window and all the carpets we put down for traction are still there too. There are tufts of black fur on the carpet that both of us agreed we are not ready to vacuum up yet. The blanket she was on for so many hours a day on the couch will NOT be washed as it still smells like her and its nice to be able to hug it and get a good wiff of her and remember her.

This is REALLY REALLY hard. We just miss her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. Kevin is having a really hard time. She was at home with him all day long and they had their routines (he works as a computer programmer from home) so she was his side kick and company all day long while he was by himself. I'm worried about him once I'm back to work. Luckily I"m about 8 mins away & come home for lunch. We had an invite from my best friend for us to come for a BBQ last night but we had to cancel, we were just not ready. We haven't spoken to anyone about her yet in person, we've been just hiding out grieving at home 🙁  We've been shopping to the store etc. but we dont' have to talk to those people about Kylie so its OK. She truly was our life, our everything. This house is so eeriliy quiet, but of course we're no where near ready to get another yet.

We've looked through so many photos and are trying to choose some good ones to get framed for the mantle where her urn will sit. Thank God I've taken SO many pics of her over the years so there is plenty to choose from and its feels good looking at them all and remembering what a fun life we've had since adopting her. So glad she chose us at the shelter. We were a perfect fit for each other We will have other dogs and we will love them with our whole heart like we did with her, but there will never be another Kylie.

We are going to the cottage for the weekend but at some point in the next week I plan to update her blog and post some nice pics. Thanks again to everyone for all your kind words and support. Once I get my head on straight again, I will be more active on this board and hopefully be in a better place to provide support to others too.

Love you all

Chris & spirit Kylie xoxox