Hi Everyone,

This is my 2nd attempt at posting this so here goes (the last one didn't save ). 

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers and I wish I had good news to share.  It is with great sadness that I have to say that we are finally losing our battle.  They x-rayed her rear leg that is shaking and found a fairly large mass on her thigh area.  It's hard to feel and see from the xray but they did find it on the side view.  As you all know, once the cancer affects another limb it's not good news.  They also did a chest xray and although there aren't any major changes, they did find another nodule from a month ago.  They also found fluid in her lungs – not a whole lot yet but could cause some issues down the road.  She's had some lumps increase in size pretty dramatically (particularly one mass on her back) from a month ago which is indicating that the cancer is metastasizing much more quickly now and the palladia and cytaxin is no longer working.  As it turns out the palladia can cause muscle weakness and discomfort which could have also been contributing to her mobility issues.   So we are going to be taking her off this medication.  She's also taking gabapentin for pain and the doctor wants to increase this to twice a day now and see how she does.  Bottomline, there's not much more we can do except to keep her comfortable.  My heart is completely breaking over this news. 

Her spirits seem ok. She was able to get in and out of the car without too much of a struggle today.  She's been begging for treats and when we got home tonight I gave her a frosty paw which she ate in one whole piece.  I'm very very sad about this.  Kobe is putting his head on my lap as I type this trying to comfort me (can't stop crying) – he senses that something's wrong. 

The vet couldn't tell me how much longer we have but could tell me that it's not too much longer.   I feel so devastated beyond words.

My husband and I agreed that we don't have to make a decision today or tomorrow for that matter.  We just want to enjoy every moment with our girl and take it one day at a time.  Although I can't stop crying today I did make a promise to myself that I will be strong for her tomorrow.   She's my sweet girl who I've been so blessed with.  Tonight my husband cooked up some steak for Mackenzie and she actually came hopping out to eat it, gulping down every last bite. 

So thank you all again for your support.  It truly means so much to me. 

Oh and one last thing...it's been raining really hard here in LA and after we came out of the vets and walked to the car, there was a huge, double rainbow right before us.  I couldn't help but think this was a message of comfort being sent to me. 

Kami