So many things have been going so well with Cora but right now I'm feeling overwhelmed, worried and frustrated. Starting last week Cora started having her episodes where she suddenly has distressed barking fits and sometimes turns and bites at her back legs. I really believe these episodes are probably a mix of her messed up neurology and a trigger. She is amazingly sensitive to itchiness. Sometimes it's hard to pet her because it makes her want to scratch and often upsets her. Eliminating chicken seemed to help that. Good flea control seemed to help.

I discovered two days ago fleas were back. In my entire time of having dogs, I've only had one other time that was as bad as this with fleas. So I flea treated all the critters. I gave Cora some benedryl which seemed to help? But she's been so up and down and night time seems to be the worst for her. Yesterday was by far the worst we've had in a long time. She was irritable in the morning. When I came home at lunch she wouldn't go potty and wasn't cooperating in general. I was gone at work and then had to leave after work. After work I took Floyd with me so Cora could have some quiet time.

When we get home she'd fallen asleep right by the front door. I had troubles getting it open because she was in the way. I finally did and was trying to go in slowly and suddenly Floyd burst in knocking her down. She flipped out. Crying, barking, falling down. She hasn't been like that since she had her stump. This happened off and on for the next few hours. She was so distressed she was letting me hold her. I thought about the emergency vet. If it was another dog I probably would have but this is Cora. I think a lot of this is her brain misfiring. Her distress was freaking floyd out and he'd run and bark and set her off again. It had been a very rough day for me and I wasn't dealing well with Floyd. I gave her a tramadol, put in some ear plugs and put Floyd and I too bed. I feel like I failed her last night.

And right now, she's happily playing in the yard. I think I'm going to give it one more day and see if the flea meds kick in and she settles down more and if not take her to the vet. But which vet? The neurologist? Her regular vet? What if she's having a behavioral seizure? What if she really does have a degenerative brain disorder and it's finally catching up to her? I don't think those are liking but that fear is there. And I don't mind, but it's been a rough for me in other ways and I'm just overwhelmed and Cora's barking has been interfering  with my sleep and I know very recently I was talking about how well things were going but right now it just feels impossible.

Ok, done with whining. We will return to positive programing soon.