Bummer.  But, you're in the right crowd.  I found I was crying a ton before, during, and after diagnosis.  Then, when we met with Jackson's onco, my tears were far less frequent and my mood even here changed.  Meeting with an expert, hearing how she thought his cancer looked (if one can *really* tell?!), and her recommended treatment, I felt so much better.  Having a plan and acting on it is empowering.  Plus, seeing how well Jackson is getting around on 3 legs and handling all his meds - we're pretty confident in our treatment course.  I hope you receive the same feeling next week - and that could be doing IV chemo, metronomics , or abstaining from those courses.  Whatever you decide, whatever if best for your pup, we're here and we understand and we support.  Go get 'em, Duncan!