Oh Koda is such a big wonderful gorgeous boy!  He is lucky to have you as parents.  I'm relatively new too and everyone here has been so great.  I struggled too after the first night and first few days but it does get better.  My dog Thisbe is so much happier now that she is off chemo pills and medications and free of the very large mast- cell tumor on her foot.  Good luck to all of you and good on ya for educating yourself and taking such good care of the boy. 

Kendra and Thisbe