Unfortunately I found a lump on the front of Milly's shoulder last week, just above where her leg was amputated.  Vet thinks it's another cancerous lymph node.  The lump is getting bigger every day and this morning I found a lump on her tummy

Very sad to say Milly left us on Sunday 20th December. 

She had been running around enjoying herself with the other dogs right up until the week before.  The vet was amazed she was still going - the tumour on her shoulder had grown so big and heavy that she was starting to tip over on that side, but she kept going and the weekend before she had a 90 minute run without any problems.

Her appetite wasn't great though so on the Friday we went to the vet and he gave her an injection of anabolic steriods.  On Saturday her appetite was even worse and she was very listless.  I took her to bed but she was whining and couldn't settle, so I put her back in her bed downstairs.  Now I wish that I had kept her with me for that last night

I came down at 6 am on Sunday morning and she was lying just inside the living room door.  She was trying to get up to go outside with the others but she was so weak she just  toppled over.  Her gums were deathly pale. I wrapped her in a blanket, got dressed and took her straight to the vet for her last journey.  I looked into her eyes as she lay on the vets table and she just looked blankly back at me.  The tumour had started to bleed out and she was dying, so the vet helped her on her way while I held her and talked to her and kissed her 

I am thankful that at least her deterioration was quite quick and that there was no doubt whatsoever that I was doing the right thing, which was the part I had been dreading most.

This is the last photo I took of her, the weekend before she died.

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She has left such a huge hole in my life and I am hoping her ashes will be ready for collection today so that she can come home for Christmas.

Sleep tight my Milly-mouse, and remember you were much loved and always will be.