Oh Carol, I wish there was a tonic we could all take to eliminate the emotional pain and all the second guessing and all the overwhelming despair that consumes us during a time like this.

I've learned during all the wonderful relationships with my dogs and I know you already know this....there is NEVER (or rarely) a "right" time. For me, I either did it too soon or waited to long....or should have tried this....or should not have tried that. And that's such a waste of emotional energey that o lay eats at the whole in your heart even more.

Or whatever it's worth, it really does seem like she had something else going g on besides the mets. It may indeed be everything your second vet thought and then some. For me, to not have tried and to of have given her EVERY chance as you did, well, that would have stayed in "if only I had" part of my gut for a long time. You got to see her rally a bit and that meant something you were doing was working...even if briefly.

Please hold onto two thoughts...pleas, if you can:

Willow would not want you to spend one more second beating yourself up (easier said than do e)....she would be so hurt if she thought that's what you were doing. She would be so happy knowing that you knew..that she knew...you did everything out of love and she wouldn't have changed a thing!! She wants yo to only think of the gloriouslife full of love and joy she had with you!

And, there are just some questions you will never kknow the answer so you can let go of that extra weight.

I know these are only words and our pain is so raw right now it's hard to see a better day.

Carol, please give the love and healing energy to yourself that Willow is surrounding our with. Step into it now and feel her grace infusing OK with a peace of knowing you and Willow is ALWYS with you and she wants to see you embracing a memory that makes you smile!! Can you find one right now Carol? She's sending you one......there, I think you see it now.

With love, Sally and Happy Hannah