Liz, just had to come over here to thank you for your kind words to me on the loss of Shan.  I think you probably feel my pain all too well.  I have known since September that Shan's cancer was unlikely to be cured but had good hopes for another year or two.  After she handled the amputation and chemo so magnificently, I so stupidly thought I had it made in the shade for at least a few more normal months.  And, then within a couple weeks of the final chemo that nasty-a** cancer came back with a vengeance and in a totally unexpected place.  She went from happy to crushing pain in the space of a week and before I could think any of it through I had to say goodbye because I couldn't let her hurt.  It leaves you in shock and questioning everything you thought and did and gives you no time for sweet goodbyes - no last drive, no last visit to the dog park, no last anything.  I lost her yesterday and my brain knows that, but my heart is still numb and can't believe I won't see her again in this house.  Every toy, leash, bowl is just another stab in the heart.  I feel your pain and I know you feel mine.  Thanks for reaching out when you were in the midst of your own suffering and I just want to reach back and send you cyber love and hugs.  It will get better for us but today it just sucks.  My heart is with you - Lisa