Thanks for your thoughts.  I have been thinking about you, too.  It is so sad that Jake & Emily were both doing so great and died so close together.  I hate this so much.  I never expected cancer in the spine.  I thought I had to watch for coughing and I would know it was lung mets and our time was limited.  Sound familiar? 

Poor Wolfie.  Bentley and Emily were only six months apart so Bentley showed Emily the ropes when they were puppies.  When Marley came two years ago he kind of broke the exclusive bond they had.  At the time I thought it was sad but now I am grateful for it.  Bentley sits at the gate like he is waiting for Emily to return.   I think it is harder for Wolfie, at least Bentley has Marley.

Emily's ashes are suppose to come back to us this week sometime.  I am not sure if that will make it easier or harder.  They were going to try to get a paw print and hair sample.  Our whole house is a hair sample but I would really love the paw print.  My plans for last Tuesday after we picked up Emily from OSU was to go to the craft store and get a paw print kit to make a garden stone.  Well, we know that it did not work that way.  I wish I had thought of it earlier.

Anyway, I wish there were words to help both of us.  I keep thinking about something someone posted about how we grieve deeply because we loved deeply.  As much as it hurts now I would not forgo my time with Emily just to spare myself the pain.  If this gut wrenching hole in my heart is from loving her deeply than I welcome it...and I know that you loved Jake with the same intensity.  We were lucky to have them.

Keep  in touch.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Debra