Oh gosh .... I am really overwhelmed by your posts ... each and every one of them ...

You are all such wonderful, marvellous, caring, genuinely good and loving human beings 

Despite of the sad circumstances under which we all have met, I truly feel incredibly honoured to have you as my dear, sweet, lovely friends for life.

The bond this crazy trip brings to us is unbreakable and will last for life. 

I have just managed to sort of pull myself together (not there completely, but still ...)

Eurydice has been the most marvellous friend ever, as usual.

The morning after her scan, we woke up and she hugged me like she never had before, I mean a full human hug 

She placed her front leg on my shoulder as we were lying face to face, got her face really close to mine and stared lovingly into my eyes for an eternity 

And then again today, just before she got in to have her chemo she placed her paw on my shoulder as I was standing up and licked my face, or better said, totally polished my face for a loooong time.

She would go down to rest and then back up again, lick, lick, lick with really joyous, happy, exploding with love eyes as if telling me she is ok with us trying for anything else.

This never, ever happened before just as the human hug didn't too.

As for the medical news, I had a long chat with her oncologist today.

He is an angel and I could tell he was swallowing tears at moments ...

So, we have 5 sessions of doxorubicin and we have to stop at that number because from that point on it would be too dangerous for her heart.

It is also not great for the kidneys but I am willing to run the risk knowing they test her blood before each session.

After session 3 we'll have another PET scan.

What we are hoping for (in the miracle department) is to see no tumours there which would mean chemo got rid of them. This is very, very rare but it happens ...

If the tumours have shrunk it is good news and if they are the same size it's not bad.

I am holding my breath for miracle news ...

Thank you again everybody, I cannot tell you how much that means to us just having the Tripawds nation holding paws with us, so, so special 

I am doing my best.

I am not perfect, as if I was, I would be a dawg but I am trying my best.

Special thanks to Clare as she offered to be our helpline, I did think of calling you as I was driving to Guilford this morning ...

But I tend to keep quiet if times are the hardest ...

Still hoping for a miracle for now as a miracle can still be produced.

If mets have not disappeared then I will be hoping for the best quality time for as long as possible. 

Thank you again for your support and kind words, it really means everything to me and miss cow !

Sending you all my warmest hugs and woof woofs from miss cow who has just had steak and is ever so happy lying in bed now 

Hi everybody 💖

Sorry I have been absent from tripawds, I just need a little pause at the moment as I am not feeling in top form.

As for Eurydice, she is blissfully unaware of what is going on inside her body and feels totally great!

I am doing my very, very best to remain pawsitive and give my girl but good days but sometimes my knees weaken and my heart  sulks at the thought of the inevitable and how close we are.

Of course, I don't let these thoughts overwhelm me all the time and I concentrate on giving her the most fun and loving days but sometimes this cloud of sadness takes hold and every single time Eurydice has come to my rescue giving me extra loving hugs and looking into my eyes for an eternity until she is sure I know she will always be right by my side. 

Yes, Sally, I know what the danger is for heart and kidneys but as you said we can stop if there is a problem and blood tests are taken before each session.

We simply have nothing to loose.

This chemo treatment is the only thing that may still make a difference so we are going for it.

As I see it, we started using long range missiles, now we are using short range missiles and we will probably end up sword fighting against this monster ...

But I am NOT giving in ...

Not yet. 

Eurydice deserves to put up the best fight she possibly can.

I so thank you all for thinking about me and my girl, I truly am overwhelmed by your kindness 💝💝💝

Sending you a tornado 🌪 of hugs and cuddles all around 💖💖💞🐾😘🐮🐶🐱