Just wanted to say hello really, I've found this site so helpful over the last 45 minutes I know I'm gonna be coming back soon.

My beautiful little girl Fern (a 9 year old Springer) had her front right leg amputated yesterday after a mast cell tumor was removed, the wound failed to heal and the resulting graft failed, she's had a nightmare 3 weeks.

We brought her home tonight , 36 hours after the op, and I've tried to be strong for Fern and my wife (and 6year old son who thinks it intriguing) but now they're settled I find myself struggling to sleep.

I know it'll get easier and I've found comfort in the forums, I am experiencing a range of emotions including grief, self pity, sympathy, blame  and a host of irrational thoughts

As I said at the start, I just wanted to say hello, I felt very isolated and alone (I'm trying to be strong for the family) until I read your forums, I know I'm not the first person to experience this and I am sure that I will feel much more pocitive in 48 hours.

To be honest, just typing this has made me feel so much better…thanks for listening, I'll let you know how Fern is doing very soon.

Welcome Fern's Dad,

I'm sorry your girl Fern is having to go through this but happy that you have found our little community. I remember well those early days. The emotions that you describe have been felt by all of us at some time or another during this journey. I too felt I needed to be strong for my family as well as Fortis but boy was it tough at times. I would come to the forums not only for info but as a place to laugh and share as well. You might say It has been my crutch during this past year. As Jerry has already said, the next two weeks may be a bit rough but most dogs do just fine on 3 and most will amaze you with their strength and determination. My thoughts are with you, Fern and your family as you begin this journey. Please keep us updated and please feel free to ask what ever questions you might have.

Fortis'Dad

I have a copy of "Without Regret". I will send it to you, if you'd like. Just send a PM w/your address.

Cynthia

Welcome fernsdad and fern, there isnt very much I can add to this post that everyone else hasnt already covered. It is a tremendous group for hope, advice , compassion tips , like Fortisdad said, a palce to laugh and share. And in the midst of it all – its ok to laugh and share along with all the other emotions. Hoping to hear more from you and hoping for lots of positive reports!

Cooper and Coopsdad

Sorry to hear about Fern's cancer.  She really will be much better once the wounds heal and she's no longer on pain medicine.  We have all had our moments of negativity, just keep being positive around Fern and you will be amazed at how quickly they recover. There's that nasty 2 weeks of "hell" but once it's over, you'll know you made the right decision.  Best of luck and please keep us posted!

Lisa

I think we have all gone through that whole range of emotions.  Getting through the first 2 weeks is the hardest, but you will be surprised how well they do on 3 legs and you will realize that you made the right decision.  So get your sleep when you can and stop beating yourself up.  Post a picture so we can know how beautiful your little girl Fern is!

Angel Ruthie's mom & puppy Tess