We will never be able to thank you all enough for the heartfelt support in all your postings.   We read through them all and received such comfort.   We loved Linus beyond words and were so completely terrified that he might suffer.    When he was at Davis ER on Sunday I was crazed that I did not want him to die there.   We love everyone at Davis but how could so loved a boy as Linus die there on the floor in the hospital.

We always say no bad days for our pups.   No bad days.   When he was too weak to walk on his hind leg, we'd carefully help him around, Eric guiding his front and me, in my normal place, cupping his cute little bum and doing the hopping for him, carefully guiding his rear paw so it would land just the right way.  My father said it looked like I had a tail.   Eric said he wished he could make a giant backpack so he could carry him around everywhere he went.   He was so much of our life.   His care was the most important job I've ever had.   I lost my other job just before he had his amputation.   Now I realize what a absolute gift that was, I want to kiss everyone who didn't hire me since then.   I had the job I needed most, caring for my sweet little man.   

I wish I could say more.  I wish I didn't question whether there was something I missed, something more, maybe today he would have been better.   I just wish he would have eaten, anything.   We tried everything we knew he'd ever enjoyed and some others we hadn't thought of (thanks "Jerry" and "Admin" for the new ideas and for all your support.   You were our angels in our darkest hour.)   I wish I could take him outside once more.  Watch him with his sweet face and giant velvet ears facing, eyes closed, into the sunshine.  He would sit for hours on his bed in the back of his Gator, eyes closed, enjoying the sun and sniffing the breeze.  Watching over his kingdom.  His highness Linus.

I saw him in my dreams last night.   Running with his four legs.  I woke up and realized he was gone.  I went back to sleep, hoping, hoping, hoping I would find him…but I did not.  I am so empty inside.

Thank you all, thank you all a million times over for giving us the comfort and empathy you have.     

We are sorry to read of your loss. From all that you have written, there is no doubt how much you love Linus. As for not being on the forum, don't sweat it. Jane hardly every posts, as it's too difficult for her to read the good & the bad here.

I think it's wonderful that Linus visited you last night. That's his way of letting you know that he is fine, and that he loves you too.

Sending you many golden hugs!

Cathy/Jane/Spirit Skyler/Chloe

What beautiful words for your Linus. 

It sounded so much to me that his time had come.  Knowing that is one thing, following through is the hardest part.  I broke down when I read that you saw him in your dreams, I cry now as I am typing.  I think that is a gift he is giving you, Linus is showing you he is whole again, he feels good again, he can run again. 

It is good that you had that time with him.  When my boy was diagnosed, I couldn't take any time off.  I resent it now, I wish I could've been more hands on with him when he needed me most.

My heart hurts for your hurt.  May it be really soon that you can think of him with only love, no pain. 

Elizabeth and Sammy

Linus

I felt you in the wind

Your warm breath blowing on my cheek

I smelled you in the air

The sweet grass that stained your feet

I cried a million tears

Knowing you were gone

I saw you in my dreams

Please meet me there again