Oh Martie,

I am so sorry.  It is hard and the ashes are a poor substitute for Killer.  Even if you were not disabled and could physically take care of her it would still not have been fair to make such a proud, independent and  loving dog suffer from hip dysplasia or cancer of the spine.  No matter what the reason was for her immobility it was not going to get better.  Remember your decision was based on your love for Killer.  

My prayers are with you.  I hope that you can find comfort in your memories of you and your girl.

Debra & Angel Emily

Yesterday was two weeks since we lost our girl Killer. Pain goes into hibernation while I am at work, but comes crashing back when I am at home. I remember so much, the excitement as soon as she saw (or heard) the leash, going for a walk! An open car door…going for a ride! The icemaker spewing out ice…time for a cube! Her tags clinking and making music as she walked around the house…the sound of the doggy door flapping. Don't mean to get maudlin, but it really does hurt. I know it has been only two weeks, but it seems like only yesterday that she was here on my feet as I type…yet it also seems a million years ago that we had that life together. I would love nothing more than to give her a belly rub or stroke down her nose like she liked, or play tug of war wtih her. But never again. Instead, I see her dishes, her leash, her beds, her halters, her toys in the garage, can't bear to give them away. How fast the years past. Her life was short, only 7 years old, but what a great dog she was. I will miss her forever.