Dear Elizabeth,

You are definitely worthy of Shy's love. What if she said the same thing to you? What if she hopes she was worthy of your love?

I think you have to realize how others see you, Elizabeth. Everyone here sees you as an absolute angel, an iincredibly sensitive and devoted guardian who would go to the ends of the earth for your companions. You are worthy, Elizabeth. You gave your lives to each other. And when you helped her put on her wings, you gave her life back to her. You gave her the ability to run, to fly, to smile. You set her free, and that is a gift. Remember that this whole dog-human love bond goes both ways, and she loved you easily as much as you love her.

I'm thinking of you. A lot.

Shari

Elizabeth, you gave Shy the best and then some. I can only say how very sad we are for your loss – and please know that it is not said lightly, that we grieve for you and with you today in Coopers household. God bless you and bring you peace.

Coopsdad

I am still here, going from a crushing sense of loss, to numb.  I am however overwhelmed with your love, your support, your kindness.  Thank you my friends for your amazing and kind words, I am almost embarrassed to read them.  I want to deny most of it, but the reality is I love Shy and this is a tribute to her, so I will be a part of it.  

The most incredible thing happened to me earlier.  I was looking out over my lower pasture and I saw Jazzy and Shy, side by side standing there in the trees.   Just for a moment, I am sure I wished it to be true, but it looked like they were there to tell me everything was okay.  

I am so sad tonight, because the sun is shining for the first time in days.  Shy loved lying in the sun, her white underbelly up to it's light.  I wished I waited a little longer.. she would so love to be outside tonight, lying in the evening sun. 

Under this crushing sense of loss I feel like I set her free from the mental toil of not understanding what was happening.  But I look at her bed tonight and cry.  I made 2 dinners instead of 3, that was heart rending.  I put her bowl in the dishwasher, I feel so guilty, and I can't bear to change my clothes, they have her fur all over them.  I made a video of her yesterday, I have been watching it over and over.

I want to tell her, "goodnight my pretty girl, mom loves you always", but it is an empty space I am talking to.  I miss her so.  

Elizabeth