Melanie,

I am so sorry for your loss. I just lost my Doberman a few weeks ago to heart failure too. I also thought he would be a miracle dog and beat the cancer too since he was going on a year and a half after diagnosis. It is so hearbreaking and I know what you are going through. I send lots of hugs your way and I know that your baby Peanut is running happy.

Hugs,

Sheri and Angel Leo

Thank you all for your posts.

Peanut's been gone for 2 weeks as of today. I've been suffering from the worst insomnia this entire time. I am generally okay throughout the day, but as soon as I try to sleep, I am flooded with memories and images of Peanut. Of course, all my memories of her are happy. But the sadness of missing her is unbearable.
When I do sleep, I have nightmares that I'm trying to save Peanut from dangerous situations. At the last second, just before I get to her, the nightmare suddenly ends. This type of recurring nightmare also tormented me for a month or so after I lost both my Jake and my Waldo. I guess it's my mind's way of working it out, still trying to save her subconsciously.
I'm just waiting for the dream in which Peanut visits me peacefully. I know, then, my nightmares will stop.

Until then, Peanut.
I love you and miss you so damn much.