Hey, guys. So the past month, Madalena (who had been doing great) got worse, 20 or more mini tumors popped around her skin, she suddenly stopped walking, started to lose muscle tissue in the legs, face... We did an ultrasound and found masses in her chest, kidneys and spleen. She was never strong enough for us to biopsy these new tumors, as we knew they weren't the same neurofibrosarcoma that appeared on her amputated leg. The oncologist suspected it was a very aggressive lymphoma, but she then started to eat with difficulty, ulcers appeared on her mouth and she started bleeding and drooling a lot. She was on a lot of meds, painkillers, supplements, prednisone, gabapentin, tramadol, dypirone, ranitidine...
We were just trying to make her comfortable, took her on walks in a stroller, sunbathed... but the night before we decided to let her rest she was really restless, uneasy and in a lot of discomfort and pain, bleeding a lot through her mouth, with a horrible breath (that we think came from the already pretty damaged kidneys) and had not eaten the past 3 days. So Monday morning, October 10, we decided to let her cross the bridge, stayed with her throughout the procedure, told her we loved her a lot and that she could rest...

It has been hard to walk around the house and not hear her hopping around, to have to sort through her clothes, blankets... Our other dog, Dolores, has been a bit down also, but it's understandable. But I trust we made the right decision since she was already suffering. I miss her old self, always present and following us. The last month was hard on us and on her, it was painful to watch her get so weak... 
I wrote something on facebook that I decided to translate and post here, maybe it helps someone going through the same pain and grief:

"People, thanks for the words of comfort in the last days. Good to know that Madalena inspired the affection and sympathy of so many people, even online! She was really all that you saw through her photos! To see her weak, emaciated, with more than 20 tumors, nothing like the dancing tripawd sausage that I got used to chase around was crucial for us to make the decision (with the help of the 3 vets that accompanied the case) to shorten the her suffering. I did not want to be selfish, so I think it hurt me more to see her these past few weeks, already heading for the end, that hurts me now not to have her presence here.
I read a lot about cancer at the time of amputation. I knew that sooner or later, it would separate us. I lived through this year preparing myself for this moment, and I would live like that the next few years if she was still here. I prepared to make that decision and feel that sadness. In the moment of her passing, I wanted to be strong to be with her, so I did not cry. I wanted her to see that she could rest in peace.
I also prepared to move on, so I chose to suffer pretty quickly. I cried, I cry now and I will still mourn the pain of loss, but we were very happy together. Very much. It would not be fair shed all my tears when Madalena just made me smile in the last six years. From my sadness, I take "saudade" (the word is in portuguese and is impossible to translate, but means to miss, feel nostalgic, longing for someone). I miss the times when we had carefree days, good memories of our lives together.
So do not find it weird if you see me smiling around. I have a great joy in me to have had Madalena in my life. This joy motivated me when she was here, and now I have the "saudade". We had a huge luck of being in each other's lives. I want to remember our happy life together with a smile on my face. I want to tell it to people, I want to talk about it. This final part was painful, it was sad, but I can not cry. I learned this from Madalena. We were very happy and now I stay on this path, for me and for her." 

This community has been a huge help from day 1. I hope this makes me stronger so I can help the people I know that are going through something similar. Your positivity has lifted our spirits every time we felt a bit down. Thank you so much. 🙂