I don't know if this will help, but it kinda helped me when I lost my kitty, Jacob. When he left, I told myself that he wasn't just gone….that he was stepping aside so that I could open my heart and home to another animal in need. Those animals in need turned out to be Lizzie and Vito, who I never would have met if I hadn't lost him. So while it's going to hurt, try and think of it in that way if you can.

Hugs and love from Texas…

I understand the wanting to make a big change. I really do. I recently posted a little brain dump on a very similar vein. Ever since Rio's mets have shown their ugly face, I have soooooo wanted to just load her in the car and take off. And I am pretty sure it's because that way I would not be HERE in my own life, facing every day the same pain, the same uncertain future, the same inevitable heartbreak, the same struggle. Unfortunately, the logical part of me knows that even if I do run away, the worst part of my life and my problems (ME) would just be baggage on the trek.

So that being what it is, my advice to you is to give yourself a little time to grieve. Don't make any rash decisions while you're in such pain. And definitely don't listen to anyone who doesn't understand what you're going through. You will find your way again. You will. I promise. And one day, the next "right" dog will come along and steal your heart away, and you will be best friends. And although this dog will never ever take the place in your heart that your Bailey occupied, it will run a very close second. Be patient with yourself…

We'll be thinking of you,

Micki and Rio

All suggestions you've all given me for getting over the loss of the greatest love of my life will be implemented in one way or another, in honor of my puppy and the ones on this site  :)  I'm not sure how I would have gotten through the worst situation ever with the best dog ever without the support of the incredible group of people on this site … I would have been even MORE lost w/out all of you.  Your words have had such a great impact and I just don't know what state I'd be in if it weren't for this "family" of tripawds and monkeybutts and the people who love them …

thanks guys :)  for those of you who got a smile out of the other video of my singing monkey, Bailey's favorite song ever, the one he first sang along with and the one that he'd sing EVERY TIME it came on, even if it was for 5 seconds on a tv commercial, can be found here :) 

thankful to be rounding the corner from crying to smiling, at least more than 50% of the time … 

http://www.mysp…..ng/1935917

sadly the computer that had the actual video files crashed, so I'll be crushed if the two sites his videos are on ever shut down!! :( …

I am so, so sorry!  Know that you did what seemed best with the information that you had at the time.  And I'm sure he was happy to even have that extra week with you.  ((hugs))!

Poor little guy. Sounds like he was quite sick. What a trooper.

When/if you feel up to it, we'd love to hear more about his life with you.

It can be a rough day when you pick up the ashes. I remember that day all to well with our sweet angel, also named Bailey. Glad he's back home with you. Hope you are hanging in there.

Sending hugs and Abby kisses,

Jackie, Abby's mom